Longest Night Ever

10/11/2016

Dear sky,
Could you do me a favor?
He is out there somewhere i don't know
I don't know if he's cold
I don't know id he's wet in the rain
I don't know if he's tired
Or in pain
Or hungry
Or scared
All i know he is strong enough to overcome any of those
So,
Cry as much as u want here
I have blanket to keep me warm
Please take care of him
And tell him to take care of himself
And tell him i'm freaking worried here
And i miss him


                                                                         -Overly attached me-

The one maybe?

17/8/2016

Don't you worry my dear.
Who i am today is who i am yesterday and also tomorrow.
A system engineer position won't even change me.
You have been carver deep in me.

Please don't feel down my love.
My respect and love for you will never change.
You are my friend, my lover, my company, my competitor and also my mentor.
To have my whole life with you is all i want to be.

I'm sorry for who i am.
I know its hard for you but it's harder for me to be here.
But i know you know me well enough.
That i will never step on you but will always stay by your side.

Thank you and sorry i've hurt you.
Your concern on me put my dear heart in tears.
I'm sorry i am so selfish to let you worried.
Yet i'm glad to know that i'm important to you.

Now i'm here for you.
I will always help you so we can be together on the top.
Because i know you will do the same .
Now how i wish i have the power to make you officially mine.
Please make me officially yours soon.


-DIA-

Life goal unlocked!

Since i don't even remember when, sukaaaa sangat when i can get this kind of view.


                                          

Especially at night dengan kabus kabus sambil stargazing. Ahhh my favourite. Melayan perasaan yang susah nak describe. Ada rasa sayu, tenang, happy, sedih, lega, fresh, loved, puas. Mixed feelings.

Then i'll imagine myself on top of those peaks. What will i see? How fresh is the air? What kind of mixed feelings will i get.

But i'm definitely not an outdoor kind of person. Experience pergi real camping pun boleh kira pakai jari. Tu pun kena paksa. Macam impossible nak reach puncak gunung tu. So angan angan hanyalah angan angan.

Until...

One day, i went for a real hike dengan abam abam navy and akak amry yang fit. Sangat fit. Dengan tak expect apa apa just follow depa ni. Trek dia hiking along the way for 3 hours. Rasa nak stop bernafas, rasa nak pecah jantung, rasa dahaga gila gila, rasa nak give up. Berkat mereka yang sangat supportive, sanggup tunggu, sanggup tak minum sebab ada newbie ni sebok dahaga dahaga sampai air ak cukup. Plus caring dia tahap cair hati. Gagahkan diri.

Reaching the top was a surprise. Hilang semua penat. Yes! That was the place and the feeling i had was indescribable. That was one of the best feeling carved deep in my heart. The best feeling that i can never forget.

Thank you for making it happened.

8 April 2016

 

Was it a sin to miss those best sinful moments in life? 

I got fun life but less time.

I don't have time to cook even time for groceries. So i consider i've failed the challenge. Its ok. We'll try again later :')

So, whats im up to..

21/11/15

Went to bukit cerakah with hani. Gatal nak try basikal couple 2 in 1 bike. Lalu depan couple2 semua tanya sewa kat mana. Loser rasa hati naik couple bike dengan girlfriend. Tsk tsk

Masa mengah2 cycling daki bukit i saw something which hani did'nt. It was creepyyyy +%#@=#!

Ok tak payah cerita tengah malam dah ni. Next topic please

22/11/15

https://youtu.be/v4YQ_Vd4Ny8

My first marathon in my life and i managed to finished 5km in half an hour yayyy! 

Even kami gang gemuk dalam kalangan sado! We managed to ignore others and have fun!!! One more best memories carved in my life. I love you girls! 

23&24/11/15

Burning midnight oil siapkan report assignment last month. Last minute works kills. Zzzzz... 

26/11/15

Industry visit to sunedison. Pretending to be junior engineer to my trainer during my last internship just to see the wafer polishing process in a close look. Fun!

Cheat day

20/11/2015

Day 5
Yayy! Finally its cheat day! Haha.

Tak sia2 cheat day.  Red velvet ni seedappp sangat.  Ada hint of strawberry flavour.  

My favorite lanun steak lamb chop!  

19/11/2015

Day 4.

Meal for today:

Bekal pergi class.  Roast sweet potato,  beef blackpepper wrap. 

Jemput ikan bilis,  keropok lekor and teh tarik for dinner

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Ok jujurlah. Coconut shake+ayam uncle bob.  Kah! Kah! Kah! 

18/11/2015
Day 3. Mission FAILED! HAHA!! Sorry badan.  Tak ada masa nak masak harini.  Sobsob

Nasi goreng kampung telur mata for breakfast.
Mee hailam for dinner.
And asap for supper -_-

17/11/2015

Day 2.
I went for a run with my new sport shoes!

Meal for today :

Last night's smoothie and milka(shared with the whole class)  for breakfast

I love this meal! Nyumm. 

  Homemade wrap + salad + tom yam chicken + grilled potato with fruit salad mayo

Fruit smoothie and some biscuits.  

30 Days Eat Well Challenge

Lepas berbulan makan dengan gembira,  my body start to remind me that  i need to take a break. Berat naik dah naik,  badan rasa sangat heavy and unhealthy. 
So i challenge myself to eat well for 30 days. 


16/11/2015 
As today is monday i decide to have a puasa ganti+sunat. 

Meal for today:

Sahur: Banana and plain water

  Buka: homemade wrap + udang masak sos + ikan jaket grill         

+ grape, pear, banana and yogurt blend

WTH am i doing stalking on you at 5 am in the morning.
I'm in crisis

Dear whoever you are,

Hey there,
Did u know who am i?
No u don't.

I have future planned in my head.
Do you?
In future im gonna be the boss in the house and also at work
Ok with that?
I shop hard but also work hard.
Do i affect  you?
I don't have financial issue but that doesn't mean i should pay for you am i?
Yes i am an independent woman but i need a gentleman to take care of me.
Can you?

If u don't then just leave.
I'm not afraid of losing you because i believe someone will be here to always push me when i feel like slowing down,  pull me up when im feeling down  and will always support me no matter what.  

i miss you and i deny it but i still miss you.

Final project

Ini projek gila!

Completed within 11 days start from scratch . 

Siang malam tak ada beza.

 I see no daylight. 

Tiap hari balik pukul 1, 2 pagi. 

Tapi projek siap. So berbaloi baloiii sangat. 

                                   

                                                        Team members. 2 kumbang 2 bunga.  

                               

                               

Tengah2 tu mr Chan. 24/7 ada dalam workshop tolong kami buat projek. 

Belakang tu akak team leader. Kerja dia membebel je. Membebel sebab 2 kumbang tu suka datang lewat. Mental layan budak laki kaki dota ni. hehhh

INTERNSHIP

Precious experience.

3 tahun belajar. 2 kali dekan. 1 kali 4 flat.
3 months intern. 10 modules. 1 industry visit.

Guess what. 3 tahun belajar rasa macam nothing. Kosong.
Tapi in 3 months i got more than i expected

Kami tak turun site so tak bolehlah nak selfie #internday1.
Kami tak ada meja dalam office.
Kami tak ada bos bagi kami kerja.

Tapi kami belajar module yang penting and up to date dalam industry.

Plus, every module we had different trainer. They are expertise in every module. Minimum 10 years in industry. Most trainer tu dah kaya raya. ada business sendiri tapi muda2 dulu cita2 nak jadi cikgu. So they volunteer to teach with low payment.

Hands on Hands on Hands on! and akan ada equipment yang currently used in industry. Dekat faculty belajar sensor 6 bulan, sebiji sensor pun tak nampak. Connect sensor pun tak tahu. 2 hari sensor module rasa macam dah master dah sensor ni. kacang putih.

Tapi... Paling risau. Bila tanya " How many ladies in your department sir?" Most of them cakap...
 NONE

So, kemanalah arah tuju hidup ni. Cuba jugak masuk dalam industry? Work days and nights? Ambik master? Jadi lecturer? I don't know.

reasons why i got banned from the camera. too much me. haha!

Tabung paling efficient. Confirm menangis nak pecah nanti.
Aim: Vacation tempat macam bora-bora
       : Makan lobster
       : Order seekor kambing golek untuk diri sendiri

Among all my good friends you are on top.  Thousand miles between us but its still you.  We have been together for 8 years and counting.
I hope this friendship won't end.
#imissyousiskenabluetick
#diarindulagiklccdia
#diaabaikomensis
#diareplycommentkawanoberseadia
#sissedihgilataktipu
#sentap!
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